“Prayer is not designed to change God, it is designed to change us. Prayer is not calling God in to bless our activities. Rather, prayer takes us into God’s presence, shows us His will, and prepares us to obey Him.”
The meaning of prayer is simple: a method of talking with God.
Prayer has always been a difficult thing for me to grasp, or even to participate in. In my early years of faith and pretty much up until college, I was insecure with praying. I am not even that comfortable with small talk with people right in front of me so praying to God was a whole different story. It’s not that I don’t like people or talking with them! I just find it difficult to come up with things to talk about. However, once we get going into a good conversation, the flow becomes natural and I find myself not wanting it to end!
This is how my talks with God usually start, and I used to be so insecure about this. I mean, everyone tells us that we can talk to God about anything and everything, and there should be no boundaries. But the fact is, a lot of people have trouble talking with him because of one specific boundary: he isn’t right in front of us.
Except…he is. And always will be. No, he physically isn’t in the room with me but He is in my heart and his presence has never left my surroundings. I now find prayer to be one of the most reassuring and relaxing activities. There is something so beautiful and inspiring and heart-wrenching about talking with the One who held my heart before I was born and formed me into his precious daughter that I am today. Prayer is transformative.
“Cast all your anxieties on him because he cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7
Most of my prayers are actually written- in my journal, on the sides of my planner, and on my computer. I am a writer and I like to use my creative capacities to talk to our Creator. I have also found that I like to use the ACTS method when writing in my journal. I simply write out my thoughts in each of these categories and then find myself done with my prayers pages and pages later!
There are tons of ways to find how prayer works best for you. If you have trouble with praying, I want you to know it’s okay. It will be okay. It may not come easy at first and we go through seasons where it feels more natural, and that’s okay. But keep praying. Keep talking with Him, the keeper of your heart. The more time I spend with God in prayer, the stronger I feel and the more capable I feel to walk through this hard life. He may not answer your prayers right away, he may give you a “no”, a “wait”, or nothing at all. God sees the whole picture, and he will give us the desires of our hearts when they are in accordance with his plan. This is the most comforting thing of all- His plan for our lives. His good and God-sized plan.
“Keep your life so constant in its contact with God that His surprising power may break out on the right hand and on the left. Always be in a state of expectancy, and see that you leave room for God to come in as he likes.” -Oswald Chambers