A {little} lesson on Calling

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When you’re in college, it’s pretty overwhelming how often people ask the dreaded question, “What are you planning to do after you graduate?” Now, these people ask with good intentions because they love and care for you. We know that. However, just the mere thought of having to apply for jobs and interview for different positions can send shivers up my spin. It’s not that I am scared about which job I get, it’s all the stuff leading up to it, and then the eventuals- figuring out salaries, benefits, and where I do even want to live after I graduate?? Should I go abroad for bit, join Americorps, go to Grad school, or move to a different city? There are so many things to think about. Hence, the overwhelming feeling we soon-to-be graduates feel.

But I’m not here to complain.

I’m here to talk about God. And what He has planned for my life. And for all of our lives.

Each path we take is uncharted territory. God calls us to venture further and farther through valleys and peaks, forests and rivers. Sometimes God doesn’t give us a map and that’s okay. But He’s given us a light. His light. His light that will guide us. God doesn’t expect us to always shine because He is the shining light that will cover us when we fall into the shadows. He knows the path we will take and has paved that rocky road because He has given us the strength to handle it. God knows the big picture. And all the little things along the way are building up to His great plan for our lives.

I know I am not alone when I struggle with determining what the call for my life is. Most people seek the reason of ‘why’ they are alive on this earth and what their purpose is in being here. They want to know that their life will be meaningful and that their specific calling will be of purpose. For me personally, I am struggling with discerning my gifts and talents in order to figure out how to best decipher my calling in life. Discerning the call or vocation with which I spend the rest of my days doing? That’s when I lay down at God’s feet and surrender to Him. There are so many other layers to who we are than what we do. Work can be meaningful and purposeful but nothing brings me greater joy than my relationship with God.

I am Christian and I know that I am on earth to fulfill God’s primary purpose for my life; to love Jesus and love others, walk with His people, make disciples, and love like Him. 

We can’t beat ourselves up about not knowing what to do for the rest of our lives. We just have to make small, tiny steps in the right direction- we don’t have to run. But we have to be willing and brave enough to take the risk and venture further and further to reach our dreams. The moment your dreams start coming true is the moment you start walking towards them. We can do it, I promise. Our futures are as big as the faithfulness of God. Graduating from college doesn’t have to be scary- it’s the beginning of anything you want. Growth is coming, and it’s good.



The Beauty of the Gospel

“If we live in a fallen world, imagine what it was like before the fall.” We have national parks, Alaska, Mt. Everest…that is the beauty we have now. Imagine the Garden of Eden and it’s perfectness. Imagine Heaven and what it will be like.

Now that school has started, I tend to get easily caught up in the daily life of college. The routine of: wake up, coffee, class, coffee, homework, social life, sleep, wake up, and so on & so on. This type of to-do list is not how I like to live. Don’t get me wrong, I love college. Love it. This is exactly where I am supposed to be right now. And I wouldn’t want it any other way. In most of my blog posts, I seem to fall back on my love of little things. I truly believe finding these sparks of happiness throughout one’s day makes a difference in the monotony of college living. God gives us such tangible beauty in nature. My apartment this year is nestled in the trees with a beautiful view of the San Gabriel mountains. I have flowers on my kitchen table and I see the sunset every night. Looking at these little things as gifts from God helps me keep a positive attitude and a happy spirit during my stressful and busy days.

This morning in church, my pastor preached on the power of the Gospel and living a Gospel-centered life. He mentioned the quote above and I was instantly compelled. If our world is beautiful & amazing, interesting & remarkable, and leaves us breathless now….what was Eden like? A place without sin and hurt and despair. A place of bright colors, laughter, freedom, and walking with God. My next thought was of Heaven.

“…Never again will they hunger; never again will they thirst. The sun will not beat upon them, nor any scorching heat. For the Lamb at the center of the throne will be their shepherd; he will lead them to springs of living water. And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes.” ~ Revelation 7:16-17. 

I imagine Heaven to be full of Mount Everest’s. I want to wear flowers in my hair everyday. To walk with my God and the people I love and hold dearly. Living a Gospel-centered life means that our life continually points to God. Our actions, our words, our dreams & desires. Our life points to Heaven as it’s goal.

My pastor ended his sermon with this statement, “The essence of Christianity is that we are not good enough. But Christ is and that makes us good.” I challenge you to live out his words through this next line:

“place these words in the soil of your heart and let it grow.”



here i am Lord, send me. {dirty feet}

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My Gospel is messy. My Gospel is bare feet that are calloused and scarred from adventures, teachings, and painful experiences. My feet want to be tattooed with the words, “Here I am Lord, send me.” They want to go and do. “Idle” is not part of their vocabulary. My Gospel is not clean or pretty or organized or planned. It’s God telling me “Go out and do.” I have learned to be okay with the messiness, the dirt on my feet, on my hands, and in my hair. God has not and will not give me a perfect life. But when I follow him, my circumstances point to Him and his perfectness. When I walk, I walk with grace. Compassion. And the concept that I was made for better things. I was made out of the dust -an ugly thing- but He made me beautiful. He makes everything beautiful in it’s time. We I go out and do, I carry with me that I am a Child of God. Born out of grace, compassion, and love. It’s beautiful and messy and unplanned. God is beautiful and messy and unplanned. He is gracious and He is good.